I've been too happy to blog.
Blogging Writing had been my way of expressing dissatisfaction toward Saudi, family, society, work, fucking every and anything. Since I became happy(er), I kinda lost my drive to write. That's a dear cost for happiness to take.
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I had to be happy now. There's so much dissatisfaction a girl can take in a life time, you know? I'm getting too old, too sober and aware of the shortness of my time on Earth to be unhappily dissatisfied, even for the sake of writing. It's about time that I welcome some joy in my life.
I'm talking about the simpler kinda happy. Not cackling victory, or gleeful laughter, or absolute absence of grief. Just happy. Just seeing the world as it is, and still finding happiness. Just looking at my failures and flops and still be happy anyway.
Then forgive myself for indulging it.
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Feelings are contagious, see? We infect the people closest to us with our feelings. It's just the watery way we are.
It's not selfish to indulge in it, because joy is a very good kind of infection. I got to hear people say that they're happy to see me happy. They're happy for me even though they don't understand how I could be happy. They're happy even though I'm off the conventional path of "happily ever after". They're happy for me even though and even if.
And that's kinda awesome.
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I want this kinda awesome to spread. Which is why I started writing blogging again.
I want you to -- at least -- smell happy when you read my writings. I don't know how people can be interesting without scandalous headlines and gossip juice. I don't know how to translate this calm, quiet kinda happy into writing.…but I plan to figure it out, and you're most welcome to join and wonder along.
…as long that it makes you happy too.
8 afterthinkers:
You've got the right idea. Translating "happy" into the written word is more of a challenge than translating "unhappy". The satisfaction of the task, however, is worth the effort, especially years from now when you go back and read the work.
The masterpieces of literature have brought both "unhappy" and "happy" into full accessibility to the reader, no?
Keep going.
happiness is an expensive thing. thanks God for this ^_^
@Marahm,
You fill my heart with warmth. Thank you for the uplifting words.
@Maya,
Worth every dime, man.(｡♥‿♥｡)
I know what you mean. I had a period of depression a few years back. My creative output peaked those days. I did fiction, photography, art, I even subtitled a whole fricking movie (back in the days when we didn't have subtitle codecs to do the hard work for you). And just when those skills actually started to get honed what happens? I get a doze of the happy potion, and my creativity plummets. Damn you happiness. Damn you!!
Selamat datang di surga dunia.. Senang rasanya bisa melihat kamu happy.. Dan yang kamu bilang simple happy.. menurutku itulah happy yang tertinggi. Menjadi happy akan apapun yang terjadi.. dan kemudian mensyukuri-nya.. Kamu satu langkah menuju surga.. kawanku.. welcome welcome.. :D
@Saudi Jawa,
Lucu banget sih? (◑‿◐)
I think that the things we do with joy make a larger difference that things we do out of desperate boredom. And we don't care what acknowledgements we get from these fruits of joy, because just doing is all the reward we need, right?
Mashallah 3alaik, I'm happy for you. Allahumma zidd o barik!
@Anon,
Terima kasih. Semoga Surga dunia Anda juga selapang hati Anda. Amin.
So, according to Saudi Jawa, happiness is the true creativity killer? Interesting ^_^. Nice blog, Hning. Cheers.
@Aprianti,
In a perfect world, happy people are more productive, and ALL successful artists are productive.
But we're hobbyists. So we're spoiled bratty, and are most productive at making excuses..Hohoho (◕‿-)
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